You are not good for me. I need to repeat this to myself until I believe it.

It makes me feel like a piece of shit because I know what you are going through. But I can’t let you take me down with you. I don’t even know if being friends is a good idea? But abandoning someone when you know what it feels like is pretty shit. Even though that person who did that to me was you. It doesn’t make sense, I don’t make sense. UghhhhhhHhhhh I never know how to make up my mind about anything anymore. Idk what’s right or good or wrong idk

I h8 people but also luv them

I’m just gonna focus on my last two weeks of undergrad and think about you when it’s over

Graduation… Is so soon.. And it just hit me so hard I’m crying

This place is amazing.. all the ups and downs.. all of it. I’m going to miss so many people

I had a good streak of feeling nice and I was good at filtering out shit but it’s left me exhausted and now I’m just overwhelmed with how much I hate myself and that I haven’t done any hw in like 3 days and my paper is still late and idc and just like relative non-interest in life lol and you’re creeping back in and I was doing a good job at not thinking about you ever

pdlion:

do you ever just have this sudden fear that you’ve fabricated everything about your life and that it’s all a delusion and the people around you are just going along with it so as not to upset you. if those people even exist at all.

This uh happens quite frequently

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